I've been a little lazy at posting anything on here lately. Part of the reason is I had my knee surgery on my ACL approximately 5 months ago and I've been recovering from that. The other reason is that I've been caught up in life. Which let me tell you can be a roller coaster sometimes.

Since I've had my surgery, I've realized how amazingly dedicated Terry is. He took care of me when I needed him the most and he did it with more love and care than I'd ever received from anybody before. Which makes me feel so wonderful and so sad at the same time.... because it seems like he is always taking care of me and I don't really have the opportunity to take care of him. Maybe my luck is just bad or maybe it's just a cycle, but it seems like as soon as one thing clears up another problem rears its ugly head. Terry has been so patient with me and I see it in his eyes that he hates seeing me sick. I just wish I could get better faster for him. I wish I was so much more than I am.

My knee is doing so much better though. I'm totally motivated to get things back to normal. Josh and Terry have both been great at helping me along this long road of recovery and I've still got awhile to go, but I'm thankful for their support and love.

On a more positive note, Terry proposed last month. It was the most romantic proposal ever. He totally caught me by surprise and shocked me with the amount of work he put into the special night. I guess he had a couple of plans. The one he chose was the best of course. So, he takes me out to dinner at a romantic Italian Restaurant. I was just happy with the whole romance of the evening, but then at the end of dinner, he pulls something out of his pocket... and I look down to see a exquisite set of dark blue Russian Nesting dolls with a daisy-like pattern on them. I honestly was a little shocked he remembered that I wanted them. I've always wanted a set of Russian Nesting dolls. Finding an authentic and attractive set was a hard task because I'd been looking for years for ones that I liked. I mentioned to him when we first started dating that I wanted a set and honestly I don't really recall bringing it up more than once. I mean it is just amazing he found the perfect set for me. My favorite color is Dark Blue and my favorite flowers are daisies. So I immediately start opening them....Relishing every little detail of each doll.... I finally get down to the last doll and in the place of the baby doll was the most beautiful engagement ring I'd ever seen. It actually took me a second to process what was happening. I'm not sure what went through my mind then exactly....I just remember thinking....I can't believe he's actually proposing....eeeekkk.... and then thinking God I just hope I'm enough for him.... and I don't even hear half of what he says.... then I blink away some tears and watch as he gets down on one knee and asks me if I will make him the happiest man ever and marry him...be his soulmate... Well, of course I said yes because I honestly know without a doubt that Terry is the man of my dreams. I've known that since we first started dating almost two years ago.

It's funny really. I fantasized my whole life about what love should be. I tried to hold out for it. Got really tired of being alone. Settled for a man who I knew wasn't the one.... got divorced... and just happened to meet the one man I am positive I was supposed to meet and spend the rest of my life with. I'm thankful... I'm so happy just having him by my side. The way he loves me is so amazing and his heart continually surprises me. I've never been loved so well and so completely.

God, I'm lucky. So lucky.... I found the man of my dreams.... and he loves me the way I've always wanted to be loved and I love him so much.... and he loves Josh... and Josh loves him.... and we make such a good family. Can life really being going the way I want??? Pinch me now... knock on wood.... pray for me... do whatever... but please don't let this be a dream.